Love-Hates-Me

I am not much for writing, i think i threw in the towel a few years back to voice my opinion. Well I am still here, after 7 years....it doesn't feel that long ago when i started doing film photography and getting my hands dirty in the darkroom. I miss developing photos, just the act of doing it is just so fulfilling. I find that happening to me now, except leave out the chemicals and processing time and bring in digital software.

So I am still here, with my last semester of uni i still want to work more on shoots but it just seems to be pushed back. I love shooting, there is no other feeling in the world that can take its place. I know my followers don't comment on my work, hell with that! This is for me, doesnt matter if people like it or not. I love photography, if one can be in a romantic relationship with an object i'd make it my dslr. There is nothing that can take its place.

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"Ocean Breathes Salty"

Your body may be gone, I'm gonna carry you in.
In my head, in my heart, in my soul.
And maybe we'll get lucky and we'll both live again.
Well I don't know. I don't know. I don't know. Don't think so.

Well that is that and this is this.
You tell me what you want and I'll tell you what you get.
You get away from me. You get away from me.
Collected my belongings and I left the jail.
Well thanks for the time, I needed to think a spell.
I had to think awhile. I had to think awhile.

The ocean breathes salty, won't you carry it in?
In your head, in your mouth, in your soul.
And maybe we'll get lucky and we'll both grow old.
Well I don't know. I don't know. I don't know. I hope so.

Well that is that and this is this.
You tell me what you want and I'll tell you what you get.
You get away from me. You get away from me.
Collected my belongings and I left the jail.
Well thanks for the time, I needed to think a spell.
I had to think awhile. I had to think awhile.

Well that is that and this is this.
Will you tell me what you saw and I'll tell you what you missed,
when the ocean met the sky.
You missed when time and life shook hands and said goodbye.
When the earth folded in on itself.
And said "Good luck, for your sake I hope heaven and hell
are really there, but I wouldn't hold my breath."
You wasted life, why wouldn't you waste death?
You wasted life, why wouldn't you waste death?

The ocean breathes salty, won't you carry it in?
In your head, in your mouth, in your soul.
The more we move ahead the more we're stuck in rewind.
Well I don't mind. I don't mind. How the hell could I mind?

Well that is that and this is this.
You tell me what you want and I'll tell you what you get.
You get away from me. You get away from me.

Well that is that and this is this.
Will you tell me what you saw and I'll tell you what you missed,
when the ocean met the sky.
You wasted life, why wouldn't you waste the afterlife?

i'm not clear how it is i ended up here
dej vu-think of you now so far once so near
tangled in my own reflection--
on the way down--fadeaway

with my hands on my mind i hold wounds that won't mend
with my eyes opened wide i can see it's the end...
tangled in my imperfections--on the way down fadeaway

don't hate me now--they've torn away the ground from under me
right after they were
reassured that i believed
normality is not a word i understand at all
i set myself up for the fall
withdrawing deep into the hole
this isolated little cell leaves me cold and faded
--fadeaway
--fadeaway
--fadeaway

i'm my one and only friend
i am my worst enemy
i find new methods to pretend that this is not reality

don't be lonely--now i'm your only...
just stay far away from me
when i fadeaway from me
just stay far away from me
when i fadeaway from me
just stay far away from me


decline--more whine--deadline all mine.

Song: Hate To Feel
Album : All The Beauty
Artist : Mortal Love
  
My heart is still broken
Forever my soul is frozen
Still watching the rain to fall
Forever standing in the cold all alone

I'll stay here to the end
Another day to start
Another day to break my heart
With love, still no romance
The fragile pieces of my soul
Belongs to you

I hate to feel
I wish I couldn't feel at all

Don't ask why I have to leave
Don't know why I still breathe
Don't understand why I'm still hiding
All my thoughts for you, saving my
Love for you
Once again I'm living inside myself

As you walk the path of least resistance
Is it as simple as you claim it to be?
Your tongue, your eyes
Your lies, they do decieve you

I stand firm in my solidarity
The path I walk, I walk it with my own resolve
When darkness falls we are reborn
Our dream since the fall of man
We are reborn

My beliefs are not antiquated
We are the hope
Silence them all with not just words
Let resolution be our voice

I stand firm in my solidarity
The path I walk, I walk it with my own resolve
When darkness falls we are reborn
Our dream since the fall of man
We are reborn

We are the remnant
We the remnant will silence them all
We are the faithful
We the faithful will silence them all

When darkness falls we are reborn
Our dream since the fall of man
We are reborn